Deprivation
No one has touched me, in a year. I’m isolated to the point, I have no opportunity to have hugs, or common touch. The internet is my only connection to this world. There are no real close friends or family here. The isolation, is brutal.
It feels like they need to lighten up. Because to withhold love and affection, and to deprive me of seeking love and affection; feels ruthless.
I’m not able to grow, or evolve as a being, in this vacuum. The growth i want, is being suffocated in me. I’m starved for love and affection. Just a common hug, or pat on the back would be welcome.
I’ve no one to talk with about these things. I’m prevented from seeking love and affection. No close family or friends. In the event that I died; no one in this world would ever miss me.
They don’t know me, or understand me. No one really cares.. They don’t give a shit.
Why?
I want answers. Someone should have cared about me. No one could be bothered.
They don’t text me, or call. Not a friend in this world that is close to me.
They don’t know me. Or understand me.
I’m starved for kindness. I’m starved for love and affection. This shit, would make a person mean, in no time. No one seems to want me. They don’t take an interest in my work, or my efforts. They could not care less.
It feels cruel. And what i want to know, is why they are doing this shit to me?
I want answers. It’s not kind. It’s abuse. Clearly it’s abuse. damn it.
This shit, has to change. I need a hug.
I need love and affection in my life. Need people that value my friendship, and company enough to want to be around me. Without that, life has no value.
Tired of the way they treat me. It’s abuse. Why do they do it?
Do they not know better? Are they really so stupid, that they don’t feel any remorse for what they do to me? I want answers.. This shit, has to change.
I want better. I want love, trust, and respect in my life. I want people that value me, and my friendship and company. Without love, and kindness, this world will be a cruel place. We want to avoid that, right = ?
Want someone to talk with me. Want to spend time with someone that understands me. Read my work, watch my videos. Take the time to read my books. You can understand them. In the event that you put the work into them.
I'm reading and writing the letter of our connection. It's a simple thing that's been building up for a long time coming.